Contentment

In my blog a few weeks ago I wrote some stuff on "For Today". It seems like since then I have really been being tested. Am I really content? In my head the answer is yes but my heart and emotions are struggling. It just seems like all heck has broken loose and I am being shaken. I guess I am where God wants me, trusting in Him alone.

I am praying and trying to see where he is leading me as an individual and us as a family. I spent some time in my prayer closet today (the bathtub which is the only place I can be alone for a few minutes). Keep praying about Jordan's diet or whatever is going on with him emotionally. I need a few days rest here from all of his emotional turmoil. I have some other relationships which are a bit choppy at the moment also. Mark's work situation has been a little frustrating, our promised bonus never materialized. We needed to have that money to do some outside work on the house, now we have to figure out where we can cut back to pay for those needed repairs. I guess I should be grateful he still has a job and quit my gripping. God sees my every need and has provided, he just hasn't told me how yet. For today...crawing up in my heavenly Father's lap trying to listen.